My Epiphany!

I had an epiphany yesterday.

You know one of those moments you know you are supposed to learn something really deep, but you are just in limbo as to how deep it is, and have no idea what the lesson is supposed to be?

I was genuinely silent for few minutes (not as long as how quiet I was when Robb Stark and his mum were killed in Game of thrones) and I did not want to write on it, until I was sure I have an idea what the lesson was supposed to be.

So what happened?

I was watching a video on my Laptop and had ear phones on (btw: I have two different set of ear phones), and then my mobile phone rang. I paused the video and picked up my mobile phone and I spoke through a set of ear phones (I cannot mentally remember when I put the second set of ear phones onto my mobile phone. ) The call went on few minutes and then it ended.

My next action is very important…

As soon as the call ended, I resumed watching my video and I was wondering why it was playing and I could not hear anything. I checked the audio settings on my laptop, played around it and yet I could not hear anything through the ear phones in my ear. I tried to open another video to ascertain if it was just the video that was the problem or the audio settings on the Laptop and the video started playing, yet I could not hear anything..and then I stared hearing a very distant sound.

I was already getting exasperated at this point, because my laptop and I have a love-hate relationship. The thought of getting another laptop was already taking shape.

How come now I could hear a very distant sound? I went back to the settings, the audio frequency was moving and yet I could not hear a single sound through the earphones inside my ears and the weird thing was the distant sound was not playing into my ears, it was more of outside my ears.

At this moment, I got up, deciding to move on to the next thing in my life and then as I carried the laptop to drop on the table, still having ear phones on, I feel a tiny object dragging my earphones down and guess what?! It was not the laptop! It was my phone!

The distant noise I was hearing was coming from the earphones plugged into my laptop but not plugged into my ears!

LIFE!

And yet I was already planning on replacing my faithful laptop for a new one.

MY POINT (s):

-          1)      What we think is the problem, most of the times is not the problem and that is one reason why we still call it a problem till now because the quest to find a solution is absolutely futile.For example: we think the problem is our manager who keeps increasing the work load just as he pleases, because he is confident you would do a good job; when the real problem is your quietness. You think the problem is your past, when the problem is your thoughts from the past. You think the problem is you, when the problem is the perception of you. You think the problem is your weight, when the problem is fear of trying. You think the problem is money when the problem is giving. You think the problem is no one respects you, the problem might be how you talk about yourself in front of them.                                                                                                               

 You think the problem is your gift is not harnessed enough, so why bother trying, when the problem is, no one sees you to give you a shot. You think the problem is self-esteem, when the problem is a need to change the wardrobe. You think the problem is you have no time, when the problem is you have filled your time with activities to be busy not because you like them but because you do not know you yet. Sometimes you think the problem is because you are a woman, when the problem is your definition of a woman. Sometimes you think the problem is because you are a guy, when the problem is who you think a guy is. Sometimes you think the problem is your spouse, when the problem is you.

Sometimes the problem is not the problem. Sometimes the problem is not the big obvious, it just might be very obscure. That tiny pride hanging us down while we search through the other party for a solution for them, investigating, analysing their weaknesses and explaining to them how they have to be either strong or replaced when really, what should be replaced might be our definition of strength or weakness or a human being or love.

       2)   We pray to God and then we forget to listen. Why? This varies from one person to another, I believe. From my ear phone experience, it would be the common one- we are listening to another who we might have put in place of God or just something else that gives us our ‘answer’, and then as God speaks, we miss it because it is very distant. It is been overshadowed and by the Gentlemanly nature of our amazing Creator, He won’t be shouting louder than the distractions you are ear-feeding yourself with, His Holy Spirit would be there to nudge you to Him, if you choose so. If I had taken off the mute ear phones from my ear, would the distant noise been louder? Maybe yes or no. yes, if I knew what I was looking for exactly and no, if I was too focused on my laptop as the problem.

When we pray (communicate), let us Listen.

        3)    Did you also know the ear phones I had on had no sound playing from them, yet it did not hit me that the distant sound might just be my solution. My eyes focused wholly on my laptop, that even the super-natural noise from the air could not take my eyes of the ‘problem’.  What are you so focused on that it has become the only think you see and look at? Could be good and could be wrong. No need focusing into ‘our problems’ that the solutions sing us to sleep and we only hear the raging noise of our problems.

       4)  How quick are you to give up? When it is not going your way or rubbing your tummy to your standard temperature and pressure, how fast would you give it an eviction? When I could not hear the sound from my laptop, I remembered all the issues I have had with the laptop, and I unconsciously decided, enough is enough with this laptop. Only if I knew?! Lol…that the problem was my reliable ear phones, of which I am a proud owner of two!

Giving up is a major decision, you make wisely. Do not round off a situation with all the buried but not dead past occurrences (yes, they might be pointers!)

Back to point one, the problem might not always be the problem, so before you throw in the towel, chair or picture frame, step outside of the ‘problem’, pray for wisdom and direction and Listen.

I read somewhere that ‘Human beings are wired with expressions of reactions’. We say we have forgotten, but really??! It is buried and with time probably dead. I am with my laptop for now and we have not parted ways. I would treat it more nicely and clean it often. I would also ensure that before I blame it, I have played my part well and there is no technical mis- communication.

In other words, an ear-phone and a laptop just gave me an epiphany!

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